Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Oh Chubs, how you haunt me

I was small throughout my childhood all the way until my early 30s. Then I had kids and its been a constant struggle.

Wait a minute let me back up. This is not baby weight. My kids are almost 6. It's me. It's lbs packed on by my own doing because I am a stress eater. There I said it.

I've announced it to the world and there is no going back. I am constantly haunted by the chubs. In my mind I still think I am that slimmer healthier girl but the mirror tells me different.

I don't love the mirror like I once did. I used to be a clotheshorse. I don't love to shop like I once did. I used to manage my stress better. Now I don't manage it well at all.

But I'm trying. With this post,I've officially announced it. I am chubby.

And I don't want to be. But I know that I can change. It is completely within my power.

I will no longer let the chubs haunt me.

I will take charge. I can control my destiny. Sure there will be struggles... but there will also be progress. I will do this.

You'll support me , right?

14 comments:

MichaƩle said...

You can do it, hon. I am in the same exact situation. The size 4 days have become a tight size 6 and it's NOT pretty. A good friend of mine lost 30 pounds by doing two things only...eating ONLY when her stomach growled (no other times...not when anxious, bored or stressed...just when the stomach growled) and then stopping the second she felt full. I swear to you, she lost 30 pounds eating cheesecake because as long as she was physically hungry, she ate what she wanted. So that's what I've been trying to do. I used to be called "tiny" all the time and I would love to hear that again!

Good luck! Chew gum or something when you are stressed so you don't feel like raiding the fridge!

CDP said...

Good luck!
I did something that worked for me...for three weeks, I ate no sweets, but ate anything else I wanted. It was only hard for the first week. Then after three weeks, I kept up the "no sweets" rule, but added in "no fried food". Again, only hard for the first week, and I still ate anything else I wanted. The third three-week period I cut out red meat (that was the easiest). I lost about 12 pounds, and I feel like my eating habits have changed. I don't crave sweets as much (and I do eat them occasionally now) and I don't miss fried food and red meat at all. Maybe you can try a three week at a time plan for whatever your weaknesses are.

mo.stoneskin said...

Of course. I'm a comfort/stress eater sometimes, there's nothing better than a breakfast bap to deal with stress. I'm not helping am I?

WM said...

If laughter truly burns calories then yes Mo you've helped.

Michaele & CDP - thanks for the new ideas!

Ann(ie) said...

My post birth gift to myself is Jenny Craig. Screw it. I'm so sick of my extra 40 stupid pounds....feeling your pain, girlie! My chubbyness started in my 30's too. :(

I have no tips currently other than I would like to state for the record that I HATE my gestational diabetes diet. hate it. Thank you.

ML said...

Is it Weight Watchers that has that fuzzy muppet-like thing in the c0mmercials depicting "Hunger"? He should be scarier and not keep dressing up like guilt, boredom & frustration. My mother lost 80 lbs years ago drinking 2 glasses of water before any meal. It was torture, but she's kept it off and now weighs 12 lbs less than I do. 'Course she weighs the same as she did when I was 17...Best of Luck!!!!

Virtualsprite said...

I'm right there with you. The first thing I hit when I'm stressed is chocolate in any form. Straight up, with caramel, cookies, brownies, cake... mmm... cake.

But yeah, I need to take charge, too. I weigh as much now as I when I was 6 months pregnant. So, I'll be there for you in spirit!

Melain said...

I'm pretty sure you need to capitalize The Chubs, and then offically trademark the phrase. I freaking LOVE it.

Debbie said...

I think the support we all get on here is one of the best things about blogging. Sure, we'll be here for you.

Whiskeymarie said...

I'm with you on this one, hon. When I couldn't even BUTTON a pair of jeans this weekend, I knew it was time to stop eating like a 16 year-old with a metabolism that won't quit.

For me, I'm trying to bump up my exercise a bit (which isn't easy because I pretty much only do stuff outside and, in case you haven't heard me complain about it the first 6,837 times, the weather around here lately kind of SUCKS). Also, I let myself eat as much as I want, but everything has to be made by me and can't include white flour, must have little or no sugar, and the only fat allowed is olive oil (no butter). And, my beloved cheese and wine must be kept to a minimum (the HORROR!!!). It's easier than it sounds, and I feel a bazillion times better when I eat like this.
Now the key is to see if I can beat my old record of sticking to this plan- approximately 3.5 hours. Sigh.

Mrs. Tantrum said...

You can do it. And my mom has kept off 70 pounds by doing weight watchers (because you can eat anything as long as you count it) and exercising. The exercising is key...if I exercise when I am stressed and not really hungry it helps kill two birds with one stone.

Esther @ FaintStarLite said...

I totally know the battle with weight. *ugh!* I lost about 70lbs with Weight Watchers back in '06-'07 and now I'm pregnant with my first baby ... so in a couple of months I'll be hopping back on the wagon again too! :)

km said...

I've lost 31lbs over the past few months. I had gotten to a point where I didn't want to have my picture taken or didn't want to see old friends who hadn't seen me in a while.
I vowed I'd get back to my "Manhattan" weight which was premarriage and prekids:)
Here are my rules

Never eat when you're unhappy.
Eat every three hours.
Eat lots of protein and no junk. Use South Beach as a guide.
Drink 64 oz of fluid

Not Afraid to Use It said...

Hell yeah, I support you. Come hell or high water. I have been trying to get my ass on my treadmill, so were are in this together. Hugs to you, hon.